~*S*C*~

 

trouble will find you no mater where you go, oh oh.
no matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh.
the eye of the storm and the cry in the morn, oh oh.
your fine for a while but then start to loose control.
he's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.
and no matter what i feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.
he sees what i see and he knows what i know, oh oh.
so don't forget as you ease on down the road.
he's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

so don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
i won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!
oh how i hate the way he makes me feel.
and how i try to make him leave; i try.
oh oh i try!

he's there in the dark,
he's there in my heart,
he waits in the winds
he's gotta play a part.
trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!
so don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.
i won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.
trouble is a friend,
yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

《巨流河》最后一段，齐邦媛说：

“自会场出来，我去瞻拜了918纪念馆，然后以个人坐火车到大连去。车经过营口，我想起1925年冬天，父亲奉命与马旅长进占营口，由沟帮子到营口对岸下车，和旅参谋长苏炳文带先头部队度辽河，河水还未完全封冻，满河流水，大家坐小木船，冒着被冲进大海的危险度过，到营口上岸，所遇阻挡竟是日本关东军。。。。。。

我到大连去是要由故乡的海岸，看流往台湾的大海。连续两天，我一个人去海边公园的石阶上坐着，望着渤海流入黄海，再流进东海，融入浩瀚的太平洋，两千多公里航行到台湾。绕过全岛到南端的鹅銮鼻，灯塔下面数里即是哑口海，海湾甚蓝，静美，据说风浪到此音灭声消。

一切归于永恒的平静。”

整两寸厚的一本书，句句扎实，字字地读，当她说到，一切归于永恒的平静，才发觉书已经完了，但意未尽。什么时候再能有这样的好书出现。

 

 

 

 

 

他们这一代人都是被大时代牺牲的，在简陋的环境，她念了外文学，在恶劣的生活，她把所看到的情景，找出一首首诗配合它，用文学的意境，说出自己说不出的心情。胜利前，美国首相去世的同时，陈纳德大将军离开，她的张大飞殉国，她想到了Walt Whitman 的o captain！my captain:

O Captain my Captain! our fearful trip is done,
The ship has weathered every rack, the prize we sought is won,
The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exulting,
While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring;
But O heart! heart! heart!
O the bleeding drops of red,
Where on the deck my Captain lies,
Fallen cold and dead.

1999年她回到南京，在中山陵探访，意外去紫金山找到航空烈士公墓，在一大排黑色大理石碑上，三千多中国空军烈士名字当中，找到26岁殉命的张大飞的名字，这一年，齐邦媛75岁了。

 除了齐邦媛自己，她那非常英俊美貌的父母亲的故事也是说不完的曲折动荡。横跨一百年的事迹，近代苦难的家族记忆史，用那么多人的一生来丰富一本“好看”的书，已经不只是看一本书这么简单。